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Read this phanfic!!
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Honestly, I never read AU phanfics. I just usually don't like the ideas of AUs.
But I read this oneshot, and thought... wow.
Go read it here!: llamalionsinspace.tumblr.com/p…
But I read this oneshot, and thought... wow.
Go read it here!: llamalionsinspace.tumblr.com/p…
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so i had an emotional breakdown...
1 min read
and you wouldn't believe what it was over.
Yup. A phanfic.
Now before you go around judging me, just HEAR ME OUT.
Do you ever read a fanfiction that just makes you REALLY uncomfortable because it really taps in to your worst fears and/or pet peeves? But that's also why it interests you, so you keep reading it anyway?
Yeah, well on the way home from work, I literally lost it.
Like, it just hit me and i was literally just freaking out like:
"NOOOOO!!!"
"WHY?!?!?!?"
"THIS IS SO BEYOND OKAY."
"MOTHERFUCKING SHIT, MAN."
With me LITERALLY snarling and banging my fists on the steering wheel in between.
I'm so twitchy right now, I just-
I am beyond the point of repair for tonight.
.
Yup. A phanfic.
Now before you go around judging me, just HEAR ME OUT.
Do you ever read a fanfiction that just makes you REALLY uncomfortable because it really taps in to your worst fears and/or pet peeves? But that's also why it interests you, so you keep reading it anyway?
Yeah, well on the way home from work, I literally lost it.
Like, it just hit me and i was literally just freaking out like:
"NOOOOO!!!"
"WHY?!?!?!?"
"THIS IS SO BEYOND OKAY."
"MOTHERFUCKING SHIT, MAN."
With me LITERALLY snarling and banging my fists on the steering wheel in between.
I'm so twitchy right now, I just-
I am beyond the point of repair for tonight.
.
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HAVE YOU EVER
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HAVE YOU EVER JUST READ A PHANFIC (OR FANFIC IN GENERAL) THAT IS SO CRACK-ISH AND DISTRUBINGLY SMUTTY AND YOU READ IT AT LIKE 3 IN THE MORNING BECAUSE YOU'RE BUZZED WITH LACK OF SLEEP THAT YOU ARE LITERALLY CRYING WITH LAUGHTER THAT'S HOW I AM RIGHT NOW SOMEONE HELP
HAVE YOU EVER JUST READ A PHANFIC (OR FANFIC IN GENERAL) THAT IS SO CRACK-ISH AND DISTRUBINGLY SMUTTY AND YOU READ IT AT LIKE 3 IN THE MORNING BECAUSE YOU'RE BUZZED WITH LACK OF SLEEP THAT YOU ARE LITERALLY CRYING WITH LAUGHTER THAT'S HOW I AM RIGHT NOW SOMEONE HELP
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Self- Quiz
5 min read
01: tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now?
I don't like anyone.
But I do have this major crush on Dan Howell (AKA danisnotonfire) because he's quite hilarious (he's a youtuber) and he seems very genuine and sweet, even though I've never met him.
02: what on your body is hurting or bothering you?
My entire torso.
03: what was your last thought before going to bed last night?
"why won't any of my internet friends talk to me??"
04: what are you listening to?
my grandma finishing her puzzle.
05: what's something you're not looking forward to?
School. I hate school because I have no friends.
06: where do you think your best friend is right now?
Probably at rehearsals or her house.
07: have you kissed anybody in the last five days?
I've never kissed anyone EVER.
08: sex on the first date?
No way, man.
09: kiss on the first date?
Eh, only if I've known the person for a while. I will only date someone I've been friends with first. Either that, or we have to date for quite a while before I kiss them.
10: is there one person you want to be with right now?
No.
11: are you seriously happy with where you are in life?
Not at all. But I'm looking forward to where I'm going to be after high school, and that is OUTTA HERE.
12: is there something you would like to say to someone?
"I fucking hate you, kthnxbye."
13: what are three things you did today?
Tumblr, deviantart, wattpad.
14: would you rather sleep at a friend's or have them over?
Sleep at their's. It feels like a nice escape from my place.
15: what is your favorite kind of gum?
bubblegum flavor.
16: are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends/ girlfriends?
I've never dated anyone, much less have an ex.
17: what is on your wrists right now?
My long-sleeve jacket. I seriously can't go anywhere not wearing it without having some sort of panic attack.
18: ever liked someone you thought you didn't stand a chance with?
Always.
19: does anyone have strong feelings for you?
YOU'RE JOKING RIGHT
20: are you slowly drifting away from someone?
No. It was quick and sudden like I wanted it.
21: have you ever wasted your time on someone?
I always do.
22: can you do the alphabet in sign language?
No, but I can do my name.
23: how have you felt today?
Empty, as usual.
24: you receive $60 without any reason, what do you spend it on?
I would add it to my "life after high school" savings.
25: what is wrong with you right now?
Everything.
26: is there anyone you're really disappointed in?
Myself
27: would you rather have starbucks or jamba juice right now?
I'm being a health-nut lately, so I'm going with jamba juice.
28: why aren't you in 'love' with your last ex anymore?
Never had an ex.
29: how late did you stay up last night and why?
I usually stay up until 1 or 2 AM.
30: when was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
I texted her a couple nights ago.
31: what were you doing an hour ago?
Watching A Very Potter Musical.
32: what are you looking forward to in the next month?
The anime convention coming up. Also Day of Silence, since I will finally feel as though I'm a part of it because I'm bi.
33: are you wearing jeans right now?
Yup.
34: are you a patient person?
Fuck no.
35: do you think you can last in a relationship for three months?
They'd probably leave.
36: favorite color?
BLACK. and green. and blue. and red. and purple.
37: did you have a dream last night?
Everyone dreams every night. They just don't remember. I don't remember.
38: are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
jeans.
39: if someone could be cuddling you right now, who would you want it to be?
Dan or Phil, honestly.
40: do you love anyone who is not related to you?
No.
41: if someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
Yeah, not that I would date them. It depends on who it is. There's not currently anyone in my life that would remotely like me or that I would want to date, so I'd probably be creeped out.
42: do you like meeting new people?
YES. I can pretend I'm not screwed up, thanks.
43: are you afraid of falling in love?
No. I'm just afraid of doing it at a young age, like now.
44: ever self-harmed or starved yourself?
Yes. The "self-harm" was actually by accident during a fit a couple of years ago, and I haven't done it since. I'm kind of starving myself now, but I'm still making myself eat.
45: has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
No..... I don't think so....
46: have you ever felt like you weren't good enough?
All the time.
I don't like anyone.
But I do have this major crush on Dan Howell (AKA danisnotonfire) because he's quite hilarious (he's a youtuber) and he seems very genuine and sweet, even though I've never met him.
02: what on your body is hurting or bothering you?
My entire torso.
03: what was your last thought before going to bed last night?
"why won't any of my internet friends talk to me??"
04: what are you listening to?
my grandma finishing her puzzle.
05: what's something you're not looking forward to?
School. I hate school because I have no friends.
06: where do you think your best friend is right now?
Probably at rehearsals or her house.
07: have you kissed anybody in the last five days?
I've never kissed anyone EVER.
08: sex on the first date?
No way, man.
09: kiss on the first date?
Eh, only if I've known the person for a while. I will only date someone I've been friends with first. Either that, or we have to date for quite a while before I kiss them.
10: is there one person you want to be with right now?
No.
11: are you seriously happy with where you are in life?
Not at all. But I'm looking forward to where I'm going to be after high school, and that is OUTTA HERE.
12: is there something you would like to say to someone?
"I fucking hate you, kthnxbye."
13: what are three things you did today?
Tumblr, deviantart, wattpad.
14: would you rather sleep at a friend's or have them over?
Sleep at their's. It feels like a nice escape from my place.
15: what is your favorite kind of gum?
bubblegum flavor.
16: are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends/ girlfriends?
I've never dated anyone, much less have an ex.
17: what is on your wrists right now?
My long-sleeve jacket. I seriously can't go anywhere not wearing it without having some sort of panic attack.
18: ever liked someone you thought you didn't stand a chance with?
Always.
19: does anyone have strong feelings for you?
YOU'RE JOKING RIGHT
20: are you slowly drifting away from someone?
No. It was quick and sudden like I wanted it.
21: have you ever wasted your time on someone?
I always do.
22: can you do the alphabet in sign language?
No, but I can do my name.
23: how have you felt today?
Empty, as usual.
24: you receive $60 without any reason, what do you spend it on?
I would add it to my "life after high school" savings.
25: what is wrong with you right now?
Everything.
26: is there anyone you're really disappointed in?
Myself
27: would you rather have starbucks or jamba juice right now?
I'm being a health-nut lately, so I'm going with jamba juice.
28: why aren't you in 'love' with your last ex anymore?
Never had an ex.
29: how late did you stay up last night and why?
I usually stay up until 1 or 2 AM.
30: when was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
I texted her a couple nights ago.
31: what were you doing an hour ago?
Watching A Very Potter Musical.
32: what are you looking forward to in the next month?
The anime convention coming up. Also Day of Silence, since I will finally feel as though I'm a part of it because I'm bi.
33: are you wearing jeans right now?
Yup.
34: are you a patient person?
Fuck no.
35: do you think you can last in a relationship for three months?
They'd probably leave.
36: favorite color?
BLACK. and green. and blue. and red. and purple.
37: did you have a dream last night?
Everyone dreams every night. They just don't remember. I don't remember.
38: are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
jeans.
39: if someone could be cuddling you right now, who would you want it to be?
Dan or Phil, honestly.
40: do you love anyone who is not related to you?
No.
41: if someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
Yeah, not that I would date them. It depends on who it is. There's not currently anyone in my life that would remotely like me or that I would want to date, so I'd probably be creeped out.
42: do you like meeting new people?
YES. I can pretend I'm not screwed up, thanks.
43: are you afraid of falling in love?
No. I'm just afraid of doing it at a young age, like now.
44: ever self-harmed or starved yourself?
Yes. The "self-harm" was actually by accident during a fit a couple of years ago, and I haven't done it since. I'm kind of starving myself now, but I'm still making myself eat.
45: has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
No..... I don't think so....
46: have you ever felt like you weren't good enough?
All the time.
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My Family and Phan
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So I was downstairs in the living room, watching YouTube on the TV (we can do that with our cable box).
I started watching videos of Dan and Phil singing together, and my mom and brother were sitting there with me (and know I love watching their videos, and pretty much know who they are at this point, too).
After watching so many videos of them singing or dancing to such girly songs (AKA. The Titanic Theme, A Whole New World, etc.) my mom says to me, "they act so girly... are they sure that they aren't together?"
And I was a bit caught off guard, so I said, "T-together?"
And she goes, "Yeah, like a couple..."
I.
SHIT.
YOU.
NOT.
I started watching videos of Dan and Phil singing together, and my mom and brother were sitting there with me (and know I love watching their videos, and pretty much know who they are at this point, too).
After watching so many videos of them singing or dancing to such girly songs (AKA. The Titanic Theme, A Whole New World, etc.) my mom says to me, "they act so girly... are they sure that they aren't together?"
And I was a bit caught off guard, so I said, "T-together?"
And she goes, "Yeah, like a couple..."
I.
SHIT.
YOU.
NOT.
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